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[17 Jan 2004|09:27pm] Tonight was indescribable He's absolutely perfect You're absolutely perfect <3 ::edit:: new LJ 3 xo

[11 Jan 2004|12:29pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | armor for sleep - Slip Like Space ] ( summary of last night... ) 10 xo

[10 Jan 2004|11:03pm] [ mood | drunk ] But the truth is you coauls slit my throat ansd with my one last caspoing breath isd still be drunk asl fuck 1 xo

[10 Jan 2004|09:01pm] Went over to Toris for awhile. Caught up a little as we always tend to do when we hang out. She's just someone I can talk to and trust not to be judgemental. And I met Michael Funky who seems nice enough. Plus he gave me a ride home which is definatly a perk. My brothers band was praticing but they just left. They're not bad really, so much better than what he use to do. Stupid skynard cover bands and old 10th grade timoppin which was fine except the vocals were umm horrible to say the least. and that's putting it lightly. Hopefully Afton comes over tonight so we can have one of our 'parties' like we use to back in the day that was summer. haha 2 smirnoff ice/vodka/heaven hill/white russians/a bajillion other things should do the trick. I miss our parties. they use to rock so much. so what if it was just us and in a few of them we were sober it was still fun anyways. granted it was a very very little few in which we were sober but nonetheless. Oh and uhh I gotta remember to pick up her matress :shrugs: what eva My haircut owns you. pictures to be posted soon.. maybe 1 xo

[10 Jan 2004|05:07pm] [ music | Fugazi - bulldog front ] "If you like the music then you like the music... there's nothing like it.. you cant substitute it okay? You dont LIVE the scene, You dont live music... of course you'd want to be able to distinguish a rockabilly from a punker. It's stupid, I hate classes, there's no classes in music because music is the universal language. Why cant you fucking people get it? NO ONE GETS IT! IT'S MUSIC! YOU DONT KNOW IT MORE ON HOW YOU DRESS OR ACT! I just want to slap the fuck out of all those elitist losers"- John B. xo

la la la <333 [09 Jan 2004|09:33pm] No update in awhile. No internet for awhile. I dont have internet at my moms but Ive been saving entries so Ill just end up deleting this and posting those. My moms phone number is 2394602 Kinda like that Sublime song 2390116 blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah you know anyways yeah tis all sunday=excited like whoa 3 xo

[02 Jan 2004|02:28am] Inspiration? who knows. Maybe its just cause its 2:30 in the morning and this sick lonely feeling is setting in. anyways the end result- credit to Vince for the 'inspiration' 2 xo

[01 Jan 2004|06:29pm] New years pictures ( Caution: explicit content ) 10 xo

[01 Jan 2004|12:04am] [ mood | loved ] So it's the new year. yeah... exciting Same thing goin on as last year except Im at allies I got to thinking and this time last year we were still at that akward begining to be friends stage yeah that stage where I constantly invited myself over all the time boy things have changed anyways we went to Barts for awhile, finally got to meet him. I didn't think he actually said 'fo real' and stuff in person. We also found his stash of dvd porn (pictures to be posted soon) and nikki has been a very very naughty girl bahaha The hardest thing to do is watch someone leave. Just focusing on their back as they slowly walk away is so heart breaking. I wanted to never let go but I resisted. Not like I had a choice but nonetheless. however waking up (granted I looked like hell) to Joe was a beautiful feeling. I couldn't support myself, my legs got weak and I started shaking. not in a bad way, it was wierd and hard to explain. Things warmed up quick and Im so thankful that we were together. except for before he left I probably did the dumbest thing ever; I should be shot for it. I just didn't want to end things like that I guess. I miss him already. but man... he puts Brandon to shameeeeee and that's all there is to it. I don't even want to think about what's gonna happen in 6 months. the pains in my thighs are horrible but it's worth it becuase yeah I love him just that much. sigh Yeah love is bliss 4 xo

[31 Dec 2003|04:48pm] Happy New Years. la la la I love Joe and that's all there is to it I need some ibuprofin.. my legs hurt like mad ( Stolen from Lauren... ) xo

[31 Dec 2003|02:05am] I don't know if anyone else saw this but there was a website with this on it and music that sang "Im not gay Im not gay" and I found a little gif of it (without the music though) and I cant stop laughing. it totally made my night so effin rad HAHA AND TO MAKE IT EVEN BETTER (thanks to Ronnie) KRUNK AS FUCK!!!!!! 10 xo

[30 Dec 2003|09:13pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Armor For Sleep - All Warm ] To cure my boredum Lauren and I hung out for a bit, found out some stuff that was funny as hell about someone. My god he's creepy and desperate. But I love being with Lauren, she's so effin fun. We drove around for awhile, went to kellys and she wasnt there, almost went to target but decided against it, all the while bumpin to some britney spears and JT. Ended up at Richards where we played dress up and ate candy and watched stuff on the computer. Hopefully tomorrows plans for the hotel will go smoothly, that is if nothing happens which Joe. anywho yeah tonight was fun and I want to go back out later, we'll see. Oh yeah foo fighters are on fuse at 11:00 it hasn't even been a day yet and Im missing him like mad. Joe I demand you come over now! =( 1 xo

[30 Dec 2003|05:24pm] alsdkfj dude what the fuck why is my mom such a nazi? all of a sudden she wont let me do anything with anyone Im so sick of being a prisoner of my own house this is rediculous I don't want to move in with my mom she keeps sheltering me from everything She's been such a prick lately to everyone Even my brother and him of all people who does so much for her shouldn't have to put up with it My mom's always been a nut but now this is going too far It's like an unspoken grounding like she's grounding all my friends rather than me I don't have to confirm things with my dad when Im at her house why should I have to confirm things with her when Im at my dads? She wanted nothing to do with me the past 2 years why all of a sudden is she trying to keep me locked up? and it's not like she wants to be with me just the satisfaction that Im at home doing nothing rather than being with friends On a lighter note, the Morgans dog got out and came to visit me I didn't want to give it back because it's the cutest thing ever and well the Morgans are retards Jordan go can die I hate him he doesnt diserve this dog the doggy was shivering and all cold and didn't want to leave so I let it in the house for a little bit I swear I want to keep this dog eee so cute. :giggles: yeah uhh definatly put me in a better mood 2 xo

[30 Dec 2003|01:45pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | Death Cab for Cutie - Photobooth ] You know you have something when he let's you call him hunky bear. Why does that make me so happy? hahahaha man she's so unpretty eeee oh god.. she's... oh god hahaha hideous isnt a strong enough word me > her like x a bajillion I love being vain! hahahah ewww she's just ewww eh Id bone her that's all I have to say about that everything is fine with Kevin for now. Who knows how long this will last? everyone is so effin harsh now, I hate it I swing it like a bat but these balls they aint wiffle :dies: I love Luda <3333 SHIT PISS FUCK DICK ASS FUCKEKRASDFKAJSD;FKLAJDFASFJK AHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I DROPPED MY TOASTER STRUDDLE ON THE FLOOR DAMMIT FUCK FUCK FUCK I HATE THE WORLD FUCK ALSDKJF;ASDLFJKASDKLFJ this is by far the worst tragedy.. EVER 2 xo

[29 Dec 2003|07:09pm] "so yeah this one kid said 'this is america talk american' isn't that stupid?" "well we do somewhat talk american" "....no we speak english dad" "well I mean it's like someone comming over here from another country and saying their american but really they're what ever country they came from" "...that has nothing to do with anything" "well say they came from mexico they still speak mexican they're just in america" "first of all that has nothing to do with anything either and it's spanish, not mexican. Your stupidity killed the joke. good job" I love the conversations I have with my dad! Who are your Celebrity Parents? by opp_girl_4_tp Your Name Your Mom Britney Spears Your Dad Dave Grohl Created with quill18's MemeGen! Beautiful. The one guy in the world that Id want to have sex with turns out to be my dad. And what's more is he did with britney spears. This is disgusting. ;ALSDKFJAS;DKLFJSF 2 xo

[27 Dec 2003|11:40pm] I love how my nights consist of me on the computer while allie bugs me to no end its okay though, she hand feeds me candy nasty candy mind you but candy nonetheless Allie tried to be artist and ended up taking pictures of the carpet oh god she's feeding me mints now this is sad will it ever end? so far I have anonymously eaten -a peppermint -a green peppermint -chocolate thingys -lemon thingys -rollos -an orange tic tac -a lime thingy -an almond thingy ect my nights are effin exciting beyond belief yeah I go to my friends house and take pictures of carpet and eat lemon thingys! and vh1 keeps playing foo fighters in the background. 3 updates in one day that are all within 12 hours. this is got to the point of increidbly sad I hate james bond. arg I love my camera so much. Yay for scattertheashes. stgay4evalykewhoawhat off comes the belt this is my pigeon Oh bitch no! hey sholonda? we coo? we coo... That is just a poor excuse to roll all over me I rolled all over you cause I almost said 'you try to blow a pigeon' then I laughed more cause when I do my butt giggles... jiggles where have I heard that before? suckin' on a pinecone when You do drugs you're hurting yourself and those who love you although some of those drugs make you think 'to hell with those people' they dont even know you Im just a little weirded out that you hang out all day where it smells like poop and pee! DOUCHE IT UP! xo

[27 Dec 2003|10:06pm] ( Got bored and 'artistic' with adobe ) 3 xo

[27 Dec 2003|06:25pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Brand New- Logan to Government Center ] Geez Im gone for 2 days and my friends page is flooded you kids update like mad! anywho, since I had no internet I took it upon myself to be vain and take pictures of myself. exciting I know ( and there's more than just me! yayayayay ) I hope to have internet at my moms tomorrow. we'll see how that goes =\ 2 xo

[24 Dec 2003|08:23pm] lasdkjf YES! definatly just found my nintedo and sega. Hot damn!! wont have internet for awhile I don't think. Merry Christmas 4 xo

[24 Dec 2003|02:42pm] So it's Christmas already. It really doesn't feel like it. I hasn't really felt like the past few years. I don't know, maybe because it's all about celebrating family and love and happiness, all of which I lack. It just seems so commercialized now, and doesn't seem to have a real meaning anymore. Sure Im not Christian so I probably shouldn't celebrate it because Im just adding on to the commercialism factor but oh well. I got my camera, Ill stop complaining You are Poetry. You are often the most emotional of the arts. You are introverted, in that you tend to let people come to you rather than trying to get their attention. You get along well with Music and Literature. What form of art are you? brought to you by Quizilla I miss you 7 xo

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